(just like) starting over?

well, i went for a short run today. a jog, really, because that is what i do. i'm really pretty slow. but i'm trying to learn to embrace the slowness. but what's dogging me now is i'm wondering if i'm benefiting from all of my prior training, or if the month and a half off set me back to zero. i'd imagine that i'm not starting from scratch again, but it kind of feels like it. i must learn to be patient with myself with all this, but it's hard.

one thing i noticed today was that instead of my usual self-motivating pep talk about how many other people i know and care about who have successfully completed distance events, i found myself thinking "you ran for three hours straight once...of course you can do this!" not that i don't continue to be inspired by the accomplishments of others, but there is something sweet about being able to reflect on my own accomplishment as well. feels good.

and i'm sure i will sleep well tonight, one of the biggest perks of this whole exercising thing. goodnight!

~j